"oh no how terrible let's force her to exist instead"

Don't worry, when you feel you are ready, just send a tank to Ukraine and Putin will dignitas you with a ln ICBM. 

I think it would be nice to be vaporised in my sleep tbf

Just think, all the sickness, bereavement and boredom ahead forestalled. Swell imo 

But only the vaporisation zone not the super thirsty no skin zone

Definitely, you'd want to ride the missile Slim Pickens style to ensure presence at ground zero.