have you tried/ would you try this

https://www.stylist.co.uk/beauty/medik8-r-retinoate-intense-vitamin-a-retinol/246591

context  -I am feeling down that I might get dumped for a 26 yr old

so maybe I should just embrace being a crone instead of spending money on trying to pretend to not being one

there's freedom in abandoning expectations from life