This is beautiful and devastating

It was a topical reference.

"In 1990, Madeley was arrested for failing to pay for items, including champagne, on two separate occasions at a Tesco supermarket in Manchester. He was later acquitted of all shoplifting charges after citing lapses of memory."

Clergs was there any suggestion he wanted to end it early?  I didn't see one. 

I agree with you BTW, just don't think he was prevented from what was written.

Yes of course and I agree.  I just don't think there was any evidence he was trapped that way.  Many other ways obviously, just not that one on this occasion.  He seems to actively want to be there as long as possible no matter what for reasons I understand.